Having toyed with the idea of exploring my interests and passions and eventually implementing them in real life - to make a difference and maybe make some bucks out of it as well, I finally quit my well paying full-time job at Goldman. Does it sound weird? Most likely it does. Why would someone quit a nice cushy job just to be able to follow her passion and make an impact - is how most people think about it.
However, the decision had been long thought through. I knew in my heart of hearts that I was cut out for something very different. Something that also recognized the human being/the person that I am. And so one day, when it became excruciatingly unbearable I decided to call it quits. Most folks were surprised that I had quit without an offer at hand and to tell you the truth some part of me was astonished too. But the fact is I could not bear to continue with it anymore. So just 2 weeks before the year-end bonus announcement I went up to my manager and spilled the beans. To me, this wasn't difficult at all. I had rehearsed this in my mind probably a zillion times. Every moment of most of my days there felt hapless, and I felt lesser in control of where my career is headed and most importantly missing out on any valuable learning from my time spent there. I had also become increasingly conscious of the fact that I am going further away from what the industry or the general job market desires in a likable candidate and additionally not even doing stuff that interests me or "makes me come alive" as would Oprah say.
Anyway, the day happened and over the next couple of weeks, I transitioned everything to my teammates. A lot of people thought that my decision was driven by my superior's decision to quit just a couple of weeks ago. Nobody ever realized that it had actually made things easier for me. A major reason why I couldn't wait for two more weeks until the bonus announcement.
So here I am one month into literal and actual joblessness or SELF EXPLORATION is how I like to call it. As time goes on I want to narrate my experiences, highs and lows, tears and laughter to all of you. Hope each one of you has a take away from my experiences.
And hoping, it turns out very well.
However, the decision had been long thought through. I knew in my heart of hearts that I was cut out for something very different. Something that also recognized the human being/the person that I am. And so one day, when it became excruciatingly unbearable I decided to call it quits. Most folks were surprised that I had quit without an offer at hand and to tell you the truth some part of me was astonished too. But the fact is I could not bear to continue with it anymore. So just 2 weeks before the year-end bonus announcement I went up to my manager and spilled the beans. To me, this wasn't difficult at all. I had rehearsed this in my mind probably a zillion times. Every moment of most of my days there felt hapless, and I felt lesser in control of where my career is headed and most importantly missing out on any valuable learning from my time spent there. I had also become increasingly conscious of the fact that I am going further away from what the industry or the general job market desires in a likable candidate and additionally not even doing stuff that interests me or "makes me come alive" as would Oprah say.
Anyway, the day happened and over the next couple of weeks, I transitioned everything to my teammates. A lot of people thought that my decision was driven by my superior's decision to quit just a couple of weeks ago. Nobody ever realized that it had actually made things easier for me. A major reason why I couldn't wait for two more weeks until the bonus announcement.
So here I am one month into literal and actual joblessness or SELF EXPLORATION is how I like to call it. As time goes on I want to narrate my experiences, highs and lows, tears and laughter to all of you. Hope each one of you has a take away from my experiences.
And hoping, it turns out very well.
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